OMGOSHHHHH!

So really random post, but I've been seeing the commercials on T.V for the movie "How to train your dragon" and I probably wouldn't go to see it, since its basically a kid movie but the animation is really good. Ever since I've gotten into drawing again (didn't have enough time for it lately), I've been really paying attention to animation within children movies and how they depict emotion and different styles within the animations. I really really enjoy looking at these sorts of topics and although I'm extremely interested in English, I wouldn't mind a career in animation within movies. I think the animation within movies especially the movies for children has really exploded and has gotten to an amazing point. Just the ability to cause laughter and happiness within the children through simple drawings of creatures. As well, I'm sure everyone has noticed that 3D effect within movies has really taken off and it seems as though every movie now a days is offered in 3D effect. I would love to work on a movie, with amazing animation, and discover how the 3D works out and how the animation all comes together to create and major motion picture movie. I really enjoy the creative aspects within all jobs and slowly I'm realizing through these thoughts what i really want to do in my life.

Voices

I'll remember that night forever,
you on stage, me below.
Your filling my ears with your devine voice.
My younger years.
So in love with you,
you lived the rockstar life,
but what I thought was love, really wasnt.
You were becoming a celebrity, right before my eyes.
I was fading into the background.
The mass of your band t-shirts, hidden in my closet,
far away from sight, far away from remembering those days.
I try to forget the parties,
the drugs, the alcohol.
I couldn't be with you... I could'nt follow you to stardome.
This was your journey, not mine.
So I moved on...
and now,
I'm sitting in this car
driving to the ferm
another day in the life of a buisness woman.
Suddenly, your song comes on...
way back play back,
memories come flooding back
and the song takes me by surprise.
Trickling from the car radio,
to retie the frayed laces of my years.
The memories of me and you,
and the love I thought was so real.

Echoing

Your loud voice is still echoing in my mind
Supposed to grow softer, but seemingly growing louder
Your so contradictory
It's ironic, It's laughable.
Telling me not to yell, not to be angry
but your voice is so loud and your yelling those exact words right back to me.
Telling me not to swear
but when you think I'm not listening...
your swearing.
Those words,
they are still echoing in my head.
Reminding me of your lies and deceit,
Reminding me of how histaricle you really are,
Reminding me that you are...
no better than I.

Finally some inspiration!

Hey everyone, so i've recently written about how i've been suffering from some serious writers block and how i've had about zero inspiration. Well it finally came to me! My graphic novel idea, just plain old inspiration to write and draw and do something special. I dont exactly know what has encouraged this inspiration within me but all i can say is that im liking the feeling of it. I feel like I can really get a good start on my novel and actually start on it this weekend and have it done by maybe mid nextweek. Im inspired to start drawing my characters and the emotions within the novel. As well, this weekend I have been recently accepted to UofT (University of Toronto) and that's a huge boost to my ego. Seeing as though the english program is competitive by itself, but the school is just overall a competitive school to get into. I think the acceptance although I dont plan on accepting it and going there (Guelph is my first choice), its really helped my confidence and got me into the university mood. Im super excited just to get going with school and graduate. Im extremely excited to go to university with one of my great friends Marisa Desimone, and not only just having the university experience is enough to drive me crazy. I've been feeling a bit down lately and less than inspired to do anything productive or good towards school, but now I feel I can get all these assignments that are piling up done. I can get going and hopefully get a GREAT mid-term mark for the universities to see. This has been a sort of blogger inventory on my emotions this past week, but for some reason letting it all out on here has allowed me to deal with all these emotions. Im sure there are plenty of people out there feeling the same way I am. Overwhelmed, crazy and lazy, and as if thats not enough, I'm sure there's plenty of people out there worrying their butts off about universities and whether or not your going to get in. University itself is a crazy topic and really it seems like were children going into another huge school, working towards our future. Time goes by so fast, I cant even believe it. Well this has been a good talk and just a way to let out all my thoughts and feelings.

Graphic Novels

So for my Writer's Craft class, we are now doing a unit on Graphic Novels and we have to create one of our own. I have had alot of ideas and inspirations but Im having a really hard time piecing it all together. Graphic novels are a whole new ball park of writing, you have to decide what information and speech is important enough to appear within the dialogue bubbles and you cant have too much that clutter occurs within your novel. I really feel like this is going to drive me crazy and i have so much stress on me now that i feel way too overwhelmed. I really want to do an amazing job on this, since i LOVE writing and reading and as well i LOVE drawing, so you would think I could really exceed in this assignment. But my life is as crazy as ever right now dealing with other classes and work and family issues but I just have to sit down and get on this assignment. I think if i sit down and really think, and maybe even start to write, I would get going on this, but I just feel like a huge WRITERS BLOCK sign has been placed on my brain and its driving me CRAAAAAZY. So now im probably just going to get to work on this and the fact that I should write about something I know (my own life) is hard right now since my life is.. all jumbled up right now. I probably should stop writing on this blog post and get to work but It feels like im letting lose of all my fears and thoughts of this assignment. As well, I have bought a couple graphic novels and read some in class that my teacher has given us including the one shown in the picture above and all of them have given me really good ideas that I want to incorporate in my graphic novel. Hopefully some inspiration hits me soon and I get to work on this assignment. I really hope i succeed in making an amazing graphic novel. Wish me luck!

The Last Song

The Last Song
So last week I went to see the movie "The Last Song" with my best friend Kristen, and pretty much LOVED it.
Well I didn't just "love it", I related to it. The movies about a young teenage girl named Ronnie (Miley Cyrus) who goes through a rebellion stage in life when her parents get a divorce. After having been shipped off for the summer to her dad's house, Ronnie is now forced to redevelop a relationship with her father. With her little brother and her father on her case, Ronnie feels like theres no where to turn but to herself. Having met a beach boy named Will (yes i know it sounds sort of cliche), Ronnie now has to deal with everything plus a boy on her hands.
Well here's the trailer for a better explanation -

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=joCwQ2pjfjw

Now to my blogger insight...
Well like I said before, I really relate to this movie because not only did i already go through a MAJOR rebellion stage but losing a loved one as well is something that has been on my mind since my grandma got sick with cancer. I dont really know how to react to something as huge as that but I guess watching a movie in which the main plot deals with something like this kind of allowed me to let out all my feelings towards it and let me really deal with it instead of denying what was actually happening infront of my face. As well, the emotions towards the love within the movie felt extremely real to me. Everyone knows the love stories in movies are highly fake and nothing ever really works out like that in real life. But the portrayal of the summer relationship between Ronnie and Will is bumpy and never easy which is what it is like in real life. I'm sort of like Ronnie in a way, I get nervous and scared to get close to someone because I dont know if they will hurt me or not. Love is a really crazy thing in itself too, like just the fact that people put huge amounts of trust into one person and give them opportunities to crush them is beyond me but I guess one day I'll really know.
Another reason why this movie really relates to me, is the father and daughter relationship. Mine and my dad's.. has always been a little weird and on edge. It's hard to explain but we've always had times when we got along and times when we havent. The relationship Ronnie has with her father is rough but grows when his sickness comes in the mix. I really dont want that to happen with our relationship, my dad's getting older and I can see the stress of life and the craziness of his jobs and bills getting to him every day. I try to impress him and make him proud of me but it gets harder and harder each time. I didn't really want this to become a sob story on my blog.. So i'll go on about the song in the movie thats motivating and beautiful. The song "When I Look At You" by Miley Cyrus, I feel it really fits in with the movie and its crazy plot. I really relate to the words that Miley sings and every time I swear it gives me goosebumps.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AWCPS6CXmt0

You can go to that link to listen to it, I REEEEAAALLY recommend it, if you havent heard it already, which most of you probably have.
Well, This blog post was pretty much just a ramble but I felt like it was neccessary.
So go watch THE LAST SONG I give it 2 thumbs up :)!

The math behind the drugs

The little geometry behind
those expert lines.
You're my best friend, but your love, your drug, it's binding
like glue to the man who introduced you.
The powdery substance bringing you the countless highs,
the pain finally subsides.
But what your feeling is just the buzz of the moment
and now your pain, it's multiplied to ten times what it was before it.
The precision of the math,
the fate of the weight within those bags.
Held on a scale, the addition of the drags,
drags- smoke filling the room.
Holding you hostage, dividing your time.
Minus your family, don't worry just leave them behind,
but your delusion in the mix
is your false solution to the fix.
Hoping for change
the solution to the equation
but the formula is your own interpretation
of what is really important!
The money that is continuously wasted,
the long hours of work just to face it.
The calculation of the cash,
hidden beneath your mattress,
there, no doubt, i'll find your stash.
Don't think that i dont know it.
You're eyes are giving you away,
the rotting lies between your teeth.
No longer white,
but inside, your conscience and your drug meet
for the first time.
Your seeing the destruction,
the deduction of your youth.
The division of your family
and the pain in the truth.
You need to stop,
finally, just end this warped life that you've been living.
In high school, they teach you all about giving.
To the poor, the helplss but not the addicted.
Tell me your gifted, enough to give up this journey.
Finally, just finally,
tell me you understand.
This war you won't be winning
so surrender while you can.
The methods of your madness,
each procedure executed perfectly
your time is running out,
you know that it's plain to see.
You wont find these answers in the back of the textbook,
the math is complicated now
and it wont be feeling sorry for the lives it took.
The time now is crucial,
to make this decision.
The nearby ticking clock,
those years that are gone, those years that were forsaken.
This is the story,
of a young teenage girl.
I could say that I really did learn something in highschool
but you,
all you learnt was math,
the math, behind the drugs.